Sunday, August 28, 2005

several months later....

well it has been months since i've posted my diary here. Well honestly I'm doing fine, i have a new job, still technical support in a call center. The job that i have now is pretty much easy for me now. unlike before things are complicated. you have a lot of metrics to maintain, or else....

anyways, i've gone through training both product and communications trainings. it's pretty much complicated for communications training here than before in my previous job. here you have to deliver a speech for you to pass the training and the thing is you must not me erroneous on your speech, slang,mumbling,distractions and the like are prohibited. once you commit one of these, apply after 6 months. in god's mercy i've passed the training gone through a lot of trials.

Well i thought during our training i won't encounter any hindrances with my happiness. unfortunately this wicked, egocentric,self-centered, prick, slut takes the way. i did not do anything against him, although i hate him. well there was an instance during our training that he cursed me. thinkng that he is nice, good or was an experienced agent. well i did not mind. i did not mind him. everytime i see him i set my distance and avoid any conversations about our misunderstandings.

Well fortunately he wasn't my team mate. actually, it was close of becoming a team mate. whew, finally my sup gave me a chance to be transferred to another team. until now that sup is very concern and thoughtful about me in so many different ways, i can't explain but she's a good person and a good friend.

I've been in this company about 4 months now. i can't wait to be regularized. hopefully, i will be regularized. well in this company, it is very strict and "kuripot". i was in a culture shock here. actually an unusual and uncertain company, because coducting meeting does not entitle employees to have an OT. very bad for people who are working here. they would only conduct meeting after the shift, but it is unpaid. the reason why i don't like it if we have a meeting. they will not conduct a meeting within the shift because it's "QUEUEING". Duh! queueing 45 calls waiting. damn, in my previous job calls waiting reaches 200. i believe that in other companies they would conduct meeting after the shift and it is paid.

that's why i'm planning to resign. just this week i was looking for a job on the internet. i found several positions that i was planning to apply. i found 4 vacancies, passed my resumé and answered a couple of questions. waiting for their reply and call if i am qualified or something. hopefully i'm qualified because i really want a career change. no more call centers. it makes me sick and stressed. Once a friend said that i'm stressed the reason for not gaining weight and i'm becoming thinner and thinner. o well i believe him.

suddenly sunday, as of the month i finally met a few people that i appreciate and will treasure for the rest of my life. we always had fun and made good friendship. we seem to eat breakfast after work and tell stories about what had been encoutnered during the call. a friend would make it as a funny call. that i would laugh out loud until my eyes cried tears. it was my most interesting part everyday. until someday somebody entered my life. it hasn't been a month since i've met him, but now i'm pretty annoyed and irritated. to cut it short and to generalize it, this person is not normal. i'm not discriminating this person, and i'm not being bitchy. it's just that i don't like the gestures and where this being nice is going. well, i'm not stupid. everyone knows what's the meaning of every gestures people does to theirselves, so that's what i feel.

i'm not being skeptic, because of that person my friends seems to get mad about me for just leaving them without saying goodbye or asking permission. i was not able to spent time with them. on saturday, i've opened up to them about this. i've asked help from them about how to get away from that person. not in a manner of impoliteness or something, but a natural way of parting.

with this situation i've realized about the uneasiness, abnormality and dislikeness of people like that. it's very odd and uncomfortable for me.

evidently, so far i'm feeling nonchalant about things. i'll get over it. lately, i've missed my life with my previous job. it was a so good experience and ambience. the reason why i am applying through different companies in that area. right now i'm hoping that i'm qualified somehow, and that everythings going to be just fine.



well i am wondering when i will post my notes here again. o well we'll never know..... see you around.