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March 16, 2007 at 19:00 MNL and still in the office due to late RTA again. As usual and will always be late. O well it’s been a while since I decided to write something about life. Well, just to mention about work. I got my increase. I don’t know if I should say that I am promoted as a reports analyst. I already conduct training for new hired RTAs, like KIRK and JOSEPH. Both guys are nice and ok to be with. They’re funny and they make sense when they say something. In short, smart. They seem to manage to make sense and to know a lot of things. That is why at this moment they shimmer. Earlier, i felt like I’m a loser (which I have been a loser), I told myself that before I was someone who is being appreciated and adored and always been cared about. Now, I guess I have ended my worth. I guess I just have to leave that behind me. I guess I just have to appreciate them and not me being appreciated anymore.

The reason for me to saying this is because earlier I felt pathetic. I also realized that I am an egocentric person thinking that everyone would always think that I’m important or something. Well I know this sounds really pathetic and embarrassing and whatever you may call it, but I am sensitive and nostalgic when it comes to these pathetic nesses. So annoying and yet so lovely when you see that other people are happy because of that person whom you have recommended is what your co employee likes and appreciates. Then I will be ignored. Mwahahahahahahahahaha! P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C….

Honestly I envy them with their smartness, their knowledge about certain stuff and topics that tend to interest other people. I envy them with that skill and knowledge and personality. How I wish I could be like that. A person who makes sense and someone who would really value and treasure you. O well I guess I’ll just end up a pathetic loser for the rest of my life.