never changed
ok yesterday was a quite not so good day. but it's fine. get me? well after work i went straight home. i was thinking of sleeping immediately upon arriving home, but of course it did not happen. because mom and sis are baking empanadas.and my nieces are at home, left by thier parents at home. ok so children are children. they do their thing. upon arriving home, i was asked to watch over those children. ok so i did not even sleep immediately. i went to bed around 10 pm. so that's about 4 hours sleep. i always wake up around 2 am to get ready for work. honestly when i woke up i've got the feeling of laziness upon me to go to work. i've realized that i wanted to apply for a perfect attendance this month. ok so i painstakingly tried harder to take a bath to get to work.
well last night before i went to bed both of my sister had a fight...(sigh). well the fight was regarding the children, you know..... so they both had a not so very nice fight. everything was said and done. all the hard feelings was burst out with a not so loud way (exagerating). it was very humiliating for mommy because my sis' boyfriend is there. they've shown all of their not so good attitude. one more thing that is humiliating was that they're both shouting and so all of the neighbors can hear one was being said. so i just accompanied my sister to get a taxi. they went straight home. of course we had this conversation regarding what happened. i did not went on anybody's side. i was saying the things what was right, what was not suppossed to be said and what's not. so we had a long conversation and arriving home we've also had a conversaion regarding those darn things. sigh....... o well never ending issues and stuff.
can't hardly imagine why these things keeps happening. though i thought that this should not be an issue anymore. in the first place they should have a consideration regarding mommy's status. o well in this issue both my mom and my nieces and nephew are pitiful. if only i can be a multi millionare person. i'll give everything mommy wanted in life and i would let her experience everything she should have experienced.
well here in the office, nothing changed, it's the same old thing in a brand new day. since i was not talking to one of my colleague here still it's the same. i don't mingle with him too much now, unlike before. which i know he noticed. who cares! well i don't feel like it. i don't wanna be humiliated again. yeah, i'm pretty scared again for that. especially i'm a professional right now? it'll be different to be humiliated. it could cause my job. you know what i mean? i've already realized that i should not be like this, but it's not so easy to put it back again to good. what's felt will remain. like what others said "Ican forgive but can't forget." what's done is done. no getting back to good.
in this life it's hard to trust someone. you'll never know what'll happen. it's better to be off. it's like i better be alone that hanging around with somebody back stabbing at you. o well it's not fair. o well o well.... another day. another freaking day.
well last night before i went to bed both of my sister had a fight...(sigh). well the fight was regarding the children, you know..... so they both had a not so very nice fight. everything was said and done. all the hard feelings was burst out with a not so loud way (exagerating). it was very humiliating for mommy because my sis' boyfriend is there. they've shown all of their not so good attitude. one more thing that is humiliating was that they're both shouting and so all of the neighbors can hear one was being said. so i just accompanied my sister to get a taxi. they went straight home. of course we had this conversation regarding what happened. i did not went on anybody's side. i was saying the things what was right, what was not suppossed to be said and what's not. so we had a long conversation and arriving home we've also had a conversaion regarding those darn things. sigh....... o well never ending issues and stuff.
can't hardly imagine why these things keeps happening. though i thought that this should not be an issue anymore. in the first place they should have a consideration regarding mommy's status. o well in this issue both my mom and my nieces and nephew are pitiful. if only i can be a multi millionare person. i'll give everything mommy wanted in life and i would let her experience everything she should have experienced.
well here in the office, nothing changed, it's the same old thing in a brand new day. since i was not talking to one of my colleague here still it's the same. i don't mingle with him too much now, unlike before. which i know he noticed. who cares! well i don't feel like it. i don't wanna be humiliated again. yeah, i'm pretty scared again for that. especially i'm a professional right now? it'll be different to be humiliated. it could cause my job. you know what i mean? i've already realized that i should not be like this, but it's not so easy to put it back again to good. what's felt will remain. like what others said "Ican forgive but can't forget." what's done is done. no getting back to good.
in this life it's hard to trust someone. you'll never know what'll happen. it's better to be off. it's like i better be alone that hanging around with somebody back stabbing at you. o well it's not fair. o well o well.... another day. another freaking day.
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