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WELL THIS DAY WAS A PRETTY NERVE BREAKING DAY. WELL KEPT THINKING ABOUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN O ME. YEAH I'M PREPARED FOR IT, BUT NOT SURE HOW PREPARED I AM. SO EVERBODY KNOWS ABOUT MY SITUATION WELL BECAUSE I TOLD THEM ABOUT THAT.PRETTY COOL HUH!!WELL I WAS LISTENING TO MY SONGS EARLIER USING A MUCH DEFINED HEADPHONES THN WHAT I WAS SUING BEFORE. WELL MY CD PLAYER PLAYED THE SONG BACK TO GOOD. IT WAS REALLY COOL. THE SOUND WAS INTENSE. SO I MUCH REALLY FEEL THE SONG. I CAN RELATE SOMEHOW ON THE FIRST LINE OF THE SONG, ""IT'S NOTHING, IT'S SO NORMAL".... SO IT GAVEME THE ENCOURAGEMENT SOMEHOW ALTHOUGH I MIGHT BE OR I WILL BE TERMINATED. O WELL TERMINATION, TERMINATION AND TERMINATION. NEVER ENDING TERMINATION STUFF. YEAH I'M SO PATHETIC THAT NOBODY CARES. WHO CARES AND WHO WOULD FREAKING SAVE ME MAN. I'M JUST AN ORDINARY PRICK SHIT SCALAWAG. .

you know what i'm iritated also is that this stupid colleague is still playing games and they keep on communicating so loud about the game. as if the stupid power tripping brat sup don't care. well you know why? if you will ask. i think he's scared. he's just picking on me because he thinks that he can underestimate me. o well screw them. why don't he tell that colleague to avoid playing and stuff why is it just me. for that i really hope them for more success in life. now i'm not talking with them. especially that thick faced colleague of mine. well just to prohibit getting envious and also i have a doubt that he also talks about me. well now a days, we don't really know who to trust. who to talk to/with. well i guess i'm justa lonely prick. for the rest of my freaking amn boring life. hell yeah!.

IT'S REALLY, REALLY, DAMN UNFAIR. I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANY LONGER. I REALLY HOPE THAT I AM DEAD RIGHT NOW OR IF YOU WANT LATER, I WILL DIE. THAT WOULD BE A WONDERFUL EXPERIENCVE. AT LEAST NO MORE PROBLEMS, PRIORITIES, DEPRESSION, DISCOURAGEMENT, EMBARRASSMENT AND EVERYTHING.

WELL SO FAR, ALL I CAN THINK OF ARE JUST NON SENSE STUFF. JUST TO GET AWAY FROM THE PAIN, REJECTION, APATHY AND UNEASINESS IN LIFE, ESPECIALLY ON WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME. JUST LISTENING TO A MUSIC BY EDWIN MCCAIN AND THE TILE IS COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE. IT'S GOOD TO LISTEN WITH. IT SOOTHS MY FEELING. IT MAKES ME RELAXED AND OF COURSE PATHETIC.. WELL NOBODY CARES ABOUT WHAT I'M FEELING RIGHT NOW, LOOK NOBODY'S TALKING TO ME, NOR JUST TO COMFORT ME OR JUST TO MAKE ME FORGET ABOUT IT.WELL TO CUT IT SHORT EVERYBODY HERE HATES ME, ABHORS ME, DISLIKES ME, BECAUSE THEY DON'T REALLY CARE. I'M A BAD PERSON, WHICH I DON'T KNOW WHY THEY WOULD SAY THAT. I DID NOT EVEN DO ANYTHING BAD TO THEM. I ONLY HELP THEM WITH WHAT I CAN HELP THEM WITH. THERE'S NO APPRECIATION WITH THAT. I'LL JUST MAKE MY OWN LIFE. I WON'T MAKE FRIENDS NO MORE. JUST MYSELF AND OTHERS THAT WOULD AP[PRECIATE ME, SOMEHOW, AS IN SOMEHOW.

WELL EARLIER A COLLEAGUE INVITED ME TO HAVE A SMOKE. I TOLD HIM THAT I ALREADY TAKEN ALL MY SHORT BREAKS. HE SUGGESTED TO LEAVE USING RESEARCH. OK SO I AGREED. THANKFULLY OUR BRAT SUP IS NOT AROUND. OK SO WE DID NOT REALLY HAVE ANY COMMUNICATION. BUT HE JUST ASKED ME ABOUT IT OK SO I TOLD IT TO HIM. WELL OF COURSE THERE'S NOTHING HE COULD DO ABOUT THAT. O WELL IN THIS LIFE IT'S ME, IT'S ME THAT SHOULD BE NEGLECTED AND ALWAYS BE. WELL AS YOU CAN SEE ALL OF THEM ARE HAVING THAIR OWN FUN, HAPPINESS AND LAUGHTER. SOME PEOPLE HERE ARE JUST PLAYING. SOME ARE TALKING ABOUT THE CELLPHONE AND THEY'RE USING IT WITH THE COMPUTER. WELL ME, HERE ALONE SITTING WITH 2 HEADPHONES. ONE IS FOR THE PHONE AND ONE IS FOR THE CD PLAYER

WE HAD A MEETING. REGARDING AN XPR FAILURES AND STUFF well i was very, very shocked. i thought he would open up about what i did. well good luck and been expecting it but i don't wanna be humiliated. well i guess this company is getting down and down, that it'll close permanently in manila. well i'm tired of thinking what i should type. just see ypou tom.