messed up place
huh! bad day. just a start of the day and things are worse....to bad for me. o well at least i have rex, that would be my inspiration now. who cares anyway.....o well so much things today that got worsen. ferdie will not report today for some reason so i wouldn't have any companion for the day. but the good news is i don't have to create a report, someone else is assigned to do that. pretty good, so i can go home early today. i don't have to wait and stay here longer. mwahahahahahahaha! i would have to leave this place immediately, to be specific, this messed up place.
yesterday i was able to visit an old friend of mine since highschool, his name is rex. finally, my mom allowed me to get outta of the house for the mean time. so whatwe did, we downloaded a lot of mp3s and ripped it to a cd so i have a copy. good thing with that is i was able to know more songs and artists. bad thing is, i'm running out of disc space, too bad. i just need to purchase a new hdd to save a lot of files. i really hope somebody would give me 10 gran and so i can upgrade my computer again all i need to buy are, videocard, casing, dvd rewriter, tv tuner and an hdd. that's all i need and i will be happy. how i wish.....if someone would give me that amount with open arms, then it will highly be appreciated. i'm also planning to subscribe a dsl line so i can have an internet access at home, so i don't have to worry and buy thousands of internet cards. it will be much faster. i told that to mom, but she told me that we can avail that once my sisters are all out of the country. how i wish now is the best time.
earlier i just realized that a lot of people, old friends and stuff are contacting me and asking me to visit them and stuff. i really like that gesture. i thought no one really cared about me. rex is a type of friend who appreciates frineds and shows that he cares for his friends. i've asked him about his birthday and stuff and his birthdate is april 5, 1983. i did not realize that we're both the same year of birth. i thought he is ahead of me one year. anyway, it's so odd, with the birthdate..... o well i don't know. it really haunts me down. i just hate it, why don't they just kill me now. it will be highly appreciated. i really had a great time with rex yesterday. that's why i told him that i will visit him again next week. i'm planning not to go to our tema building this saturday because oif that. i don't know. i guess tl would knock me down, idiomatically, once i did not come with them. i'm really confused. let's just see. basically, i know i will not enjoy that team building stuff, because of the fish and his minions. i don't like it. of course, domination will rise up there.
now i'm down on my hands and knees, shout on to the heavens on high, please give me a sign not to go in that team building crap. this feeling calm, makes me worry. i don't know why but i do believe it's scary. but it's a good thing that i have discovered new artists with great music. i love it. well, right now, fish is the fw and i hate it. i'm not saying that i won't acknowledge him but i just don't feel like approaching him. there's so much things going on while i'm fdoing this blog. basically tl asked me something about what was thought to us during the training in first aid. i've got a feeling that it is because fish is feeling somehitng in his chest. sorry but i'm not the doctor. they just have to wait for the nurse to prescribe any poison or medicine to cure him. mwahahahahahaha/! i do believe that poison won't even hurt him, he's a demon. sorry! anyway, i pity him because of that feeling, but if i was a nurse or even a doctor i would help him out to remove tha pain. for fist aiders all we can do is to alleviate pain and suffering. we don't do healing. good luck with that scum bag!
i just can't wait to go home na. i want to leave this messed up place and i want to live my life. i wonder what would be the new things going to happen.when i come home. o i just can't wait to sleep. i'm pissed off, because lately i always sleep. i'm fed up with that routine. i feel like i'm not growing at all, physical, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.
hopefully my sister would leave the country as soon as possible so that our expense would decrease and i would be able to purchase things that i'm longing for. so i won't be outdated. i hope i would also meet old friends and new people that would make me realize that i'm important, somehow. duh! too far from the reality. well, that's real life anyway.
i just can't wait to take my lunch now and also have a coaching session with tl. i don't know what the hell will be the coaching session, but hopefully it's not something bad that iwould have to worry about my life. i just couldn't wait for any new changes today. i'm so tired of experiencing this same old rtoutines in this place. seeing fish as an fw, sitting beside people who are so damn annoying and all of the stuff. too bad that ferdie's not around. i won't be excited too much for today as i have to go home early and sleep and breakdown and kill myself. so pathetic. darn it! i've missed a lot of shits here in my life, nostalgia i presume.
well i have to wait for the hours running by. i just needed to be patient so i won't hurt myself. well, i'm patient anyway. i'm seeing these fish a nd his minion and i believe they're talking about me. who cares, i don't care....
well i had a coaching session again with tl and talked about ron stuff and all. i am not trying to be clean or bringing myself up but i was just telling her something about the situation shee is encountering from that person. o well, there's nothing i can do to change that person and all. i am trying to avoid myself because i feel something so bad about that person. good luck with him.... i just realized that they've had this coaching session all the time about what that person is feeling about that person's being transferred to another team. o well we did not finish the sesision because i have to work and took 2 calls and took my lunch and i'm wondering if ever we weill continue this session. hopefully we would, now.
4 minutes to go and counting before i log in. i just hate when people talked something about me. the reason why when i had this coaching session i was pretty scared that tl would say something about what i did wrong. i' mpretty paranoid that somebody would have reported on her about something that i know i did not do. or even say. she will be promoted by the way as a shift supervisor. alrighty then, good luck with that.
i just realized that being a quiet person actually bothers people. i am quiet because i don't do much mingling with people. i don't really care much about people because i do believe they don't like me and so why bother. tl said that my quietness is killing her and bothers her. she even said that i might not have been too quiet if it were't for the situation happened during our training. well one thing i have learned is, i'll sit at the back of the training class, just in case i transferred again to a different call center. i will not ever, mingle much with people and avoid any conflicts that may arise just like what had happened when i was in tt and now in this messed up place. so i can move on and excel. luckily, fish has to be the fw for the whole freaking day. for crying out loud, ms tl. i wanted to be a floor walker for the whole day, please give me that chnace. 4 hours is not enough. too bad for me. one thing tl said was she is scared for me to be the fw because she's taking a risk of something that might go wrong. now what could possibly go wrong with that? well for a career growth i would take the opportunity.
o well i have shared enough stuff for today..... see you again for some pathetic circumstances in this messed up place.
yesterday i was able to visit an old friend of mine since highschool, his name is rex. finally, my mom allowed me to get outta of the house for the mean time. so whatwe did, we downloaded a lot of mp3s and ripped it to a cd so i have a copy. good thing with that is i was able to know more songs and artists. bad thing is, i'm running out of disc space, too bad. i just need to purchase a new hdd to save a lot of files. i really hope somebody would give me 10 gran and so i can upgrade my computer again all i need to buy are, videocard, casing, dvd rewriter, tv tuner and an hdd. that's all i need and i will be happy. how i wish.....if someone would give me that amount with open arms, then it will highly be appreciated. i'm also planning to subscribe a dsl line so i can have an internet access at home, so i don't have to worry and buy thousands of internet cards. it will be much faster. i told that to mom, but she told me that we can avail that once my sisters are all out of the country. how i wish now is the best time.
earlier i just realized that a lot of people, old friends and stuff are contacting me and asking me to visit them and stuff. i really like that gesture. i thought no one really cared about me. rex is a type of friend who appreciates frineds and shows that he cares for his friends. i've asked him about his birthday and stuff and his birthdate is april 5, 1983. i did not realize that we're both the same year of birth. i thought he is ahead of me one year. anyway, it's so odd, with the birthdate..... o well i don't know. it really haunts me down. i just hate it, why don't they just kill me now. it will be highly appreciated. i really had a great time with rex yesterday. that's why i told him that i will visit him again next week. i'm planning not to go to our tema building this saturday because oif that. i don't know. i guess tl would knock me down, idiomatically, once i did not come with them. i'm really confused. let's just see. basically, i know i will not enjoy that team building stuff, because of the fish and his minions. i don't like it. of course, domination will rise up there.
now i'm down on my hands and knees, shout on to the heavens on high, please give me a sign not to go in that team building crap. this feeling calm, makes me worry. i don't know why but i do believe it's scary. but it's a good thing that i have discovered new artists with great music. i love it. well, right now, fish is the fw and i hate it. i'm not saying that i won't acknowledge him but i just don't feel like approaching him. there's so much things going on while i'm fdoing this blog. basically tl asked me something about what was thought to us during the training in first aid. i've got a feeling that it is because fish is feeling somehitng in his chest. sorry but i'm not the doctor. they just have to wait for the nurse to prescribe any poison or medicine to cure him. mwahahahahahaha/! i do believe that poison won't even hurt him, he's a demon. sorry! anyway, i pity him because of that feeling, but if i was a nurse or even a doctor i would help him out to remove tha pain. for fist aiders all we can do is to alleviate pain and suffering. we don't do healing. good luck with that scum bag!
i just can't wait to go home na. i want to leave this messed up place and i want to live my life. i wonder what would be the new things going to happen.when i come home. o i just can't wait to sleep. i'm pissed off, because lately i always sleep. i'm fed up with that routine. i feel like i'm not growing at all, physical, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.
hopefully my sister would leave the country as soon as possible so that our expense would decrease and i would be able to purchase things that i'm longing for. so i won't be outdated. i hope i would also meet old friends and new people that would make me realize that i'm important, somehow. duh! too far from the reality. well, that's real life anyway.
i just can't wait to take my lunch now and also have a coaching session with tl. i don't know what the hell will be the coaching session, but hopefully it's not something bad that iwould have to worry about my life. i just couldn't wait for any new changes today. i'm so tired of experiencing this same old rtoutines in this place. seeing fish as an fw, sitting beside people who are so damn annoying and all of the stuff. too bad that ferdie's not around. i won't be excited too much for today as i have to go home early and sleep and breakdown and kill myself. so pathetic. darn it! i've missed a lot of shits here in my life, nostalgia i presume.
well i have to wait for the hours running by. i just needed to be patient so i won't hurt myself. well, i'm patient anyway. i'm seeing these fish a nd his minion and i believe they're talking about me. who cares, i don't care....
well i had a coaching session again with tl and talked about ron stuff and all. i am not trying to be clean or bringing myself up but i was just telling her something about the situation shee is encountering from that person. o well, there's nothing i can do to change that person and all. i am trying to avoid myself because i feel something so bad about that person. good luck with him.... i just realized that they've had this coaching session all the time about what that person is feeling about that person's being transferred to another team. o well we did not finish the sesision because i have to work and took 2 calls and took my lunch and i'm wondering if ever we weill continue this session. hopefully we would, now.
4 minutes to go and counting before i log in. i just hate when people talked something about me. the reason why when i had this coaching session i was pretty scared that tl would say something about what i did wrong. i' mpretty paranoid that somebody would have reported on her about something that i know i did not do. or even say. she will be promoted by the way as a shift supervisor. alrighty then, good luck with that.
i just realized that being a quiet person actually bothers people. i am quiet because i don't do much mingling with people. i don't really care much about people because i do believe they don't like me and so why bother. tl said that my quietness is killing her and bothers her. she even said that i might not have been too quiet if it were't for the situation happened during our training. well one thing i have learned is, i'll sit at the back of the training class, just in case i transferred again to a different call center. i will not ever, mingle much with people and avoid any conflicts that may arise just like what had happened when i was in tt and now in this messed up place. so i can move on and excel. luckily, fish has to be the fw for the whole freaking day. for crying out loud, ms tl. i wanted to be a floor walker for the whole day, please give me that chnace. 4 hours is not enough. too bad for me. one thing tl said was she is scared for me to be the fw because she's taking a risk of something that might go wrong. now what could possibly go wrong with that? well for a career growth i would take the opportunity.
o well i have shared enough stuff for today..... see you again for some pathetic circumstances in this messed up place.
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