connecting situation......

Horoscope: 02182006
After what may seem like months of dealing with cranky, unfriendly people who aren't at all open to seeing things your way, you've arrived at a better way of doing things: you're going to ignore them -- and, better still, you're going to ignore them long-distance. You've got the brochures, you've talked to the travel agents, and you've chosen a location. But do you really want to go alone?
Fortune:
You find beauty in ordinary things, do not lose this ability.
hi there, earlier i just checked my horoscope and fortune for today and so i've posted it here. just read through it. well i wanted to comment that it's really freaking true and i'm really, literally doing the same thing as what had mentioned and the question is, Do I really want to go alone? mwahahahahahaha! funny how it seems. but i think my answer to that is, SIRET! i can't really think straight about it. i guess i would just have to answer that onces i'm on that situation. growth is essential for human body and for it's spiritual and mental and emotional being. so i guess that will help me grow and stand tall. anyway, i'm able to manage to not to think about that person anymore and i can live my life now. see, i told you i can recover much easily. if that person stopped lingering ni my mind, that's a freaking cool and fun day. tahoo!

earlier when i went to the smoking area i was bale to mingle with people inside. then when i left the room, i suddenly saw that person stood up and so i sway away my eyes off him and took an alternate route to avoid from seeing that person. then i went ahead and prepared myself and tl approached us here in our station. she's pretty upset she's just not showing it obviously but i can feel it. she asked us why we're isolating ourselves and stuff, and stuff, and stuff. ok i told her that i got used with this station. so i said statring on tuesday i will be seated on my proper station. then when she left us. i started to tell ferdie that i hate that station because i hate them, seeing them with fish and it's dominions. they seem are the only ones mingling and having fun and stuff but when it comes to us i feel like i'm ignored, rejected, abhored and for that reason i'm starting to feel dejected. too bad. life is wonderful as the expression goes. i even told ferdie that i'm going to miss him. he will be transferred in night shift and i'm still in morning shift. we are really being separated. those assholes. i hope that they all get their karma, instantly but slowly, that they could feel it so smoothly and would make them feel like they could die. just what i am feeling. i really freaking hate them, especially THAT PERSON.

That person even managed to email me. you know what i did? i did not open it. i left it open and i never attempted to read it. i would just feel abnoxious about what the message is and i will feel bad again and feel dejected. i'm fed up and pissed off with their egos and selfishness. i hope they die? or even go away to make this stop! i don't really want to wait for them to acknowledge me because i'm not feeling it anymore. i would just make a change for the rest of my life, a major change. so help me GOD! if they come around, ok well and good. if not, KEBER! let me live my life. i don't ignore, reject abanmdon or even humiliate anyone. bunless they give me a reason not to. i can say now that i'm a good firend, but it's just that they don't appreciate it. they would only appreciate you because you've provided themwith something they need. after that, goodbye! bye, bye belinda, bye bye, as the expression goes

o well took my lunch again at jollibee with ferdie and had a chit chat with anything under the sun and laughed out loud. then when we went upstairs, i decided to grab a smoke then went ahead and for the first time, went to the lounge to sit and wonder and reflect about things. then i just realized that i'm already sleeping. i feel so good staying there and taking a nap. well i ave a new routine. i'll go ahead and take a nap there if i have enough time in my luncgh. that's a good thing. mwahahahahahaha! well basically i like the ambience of alone in a room, sitting on a comfortablechair. well i guess one day i'll be sleeping here, if it's my day off and even stay here and take a bath. since the shower room is alreday available in this comany. yeba!

o well so much to say, so much to do, but i just don't have any idea what it is.



o well i was able to relay to ferdie what i was feeling and it made me feel ok and i was abl to release this emotional stuff within. i am so lucky that i have met him. although he's a bit jumpy and sassy, but he's ok. one thing that i hated is that he will be transferred to night shift and so i'll be alone again. i hate it. i don't really like it and i'm pissed off. why do i have to be separated with the best buddy ever? what did i do wrong? is it too much to handle? what the fuck is going on? coz i pretty much don't know what's wrong here. uhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu! o well life is so unpredictable , whatumacolit! anyway, , as the expression goes. moving on, there might be greater things that will and may happen, i believe. no one knows. you'll never know. i don't want to think of the possible things that could go smooth but i'll just leave it to it's hands. i'll leave it to batman's hands. i may be so stupid and close-minded, but i don't rely much with the benefit of the doubt, from now on. as i can see things, clearly, it's all crap, bullshit and gibberish. i don't want to expect more with those people. they all suck. i'll go back to my domicile and have my life back. in that way i am happy and comfy. i'm really frustrated by those people's apathy it makes me queasy. o well one day, i'll learn how to drop all of this torments. then it'll fall on them. so they could feel what i am feeling. let's just see if they won't come to me for some help. hopefully, it'll happen so they can see how sincere i am. **sigh**




i have checked the email which that person sent us. well it's all about this signature on that person's email. what a copy cat. i won't ever expect much from that person, from now on. i may look and feel like emotional, sentimental,pathetic and queasy and pissed off, but definitely it is one of my tactics to recover from those pain and torments they had put me through. i really can say now that i' am slowly recovering from it. i'm not worried anymore. i am actually happy. i believe that this person is not happy no more with that person's life. let's see what will that person do. and i'm happy to witness things., mwahahahahahaha! o well, things will go my way sooner or later.

by the way, i haven't decided yet if i would have to meet panther today. i haven't ask permission from my mom, but i haven't decided yet whether to meet that panther guy. that panther had not messaged me yet. i am waiting. these things really are wearing me out. i feel like burnt out. for all of my life, these are the things i feel and i share andpost in my blog. it's so annoying and irritating and i feel like i'm already fed up.

well i just took my last break and i've decided to brgin with me the camera and i took myself pictures in the smoking area. it's fun and i like the pictures i have taken. it's inspiring for me. and by the way i also have taken pictures with ferdie and i'm going to post it on my blog for later. mwahahahaa or perhaps some other day. not right now. anyway, i'm goign to pack up and prepare my things to leave this freaking place. see you again on tuesday, perhps. good day.